An Abnormal Monday With Abnormal Feelings…
My chrome lighting roundup post that we had scheduled to go live earlier wasn’t exactly matching my emotions today. We are incredibly devastated for the families of the victims of the shooting in Las Vegas. It feels totally surreal and unimaginable. My usual level of escapism has been heightened. I don’t mean I want to deny this situation or pretend it didn’t happen, I literally mean I want to pack up my family, and move to a remote ranch in the middle of a state where the population is 33 and never let my kids go in public. Obviously I know this isn’t the answer nor is it guaranteed that they won’t suffer, but the days where fear runs our lives are the days where I just want to escape. We can make our own food, grow our own livestock, with no tech, TV or access to anything negative. They will never get hurt and nothing bad will ever happen to them. RIGHT?
But you can’t protect your loved ones from everything (can you protect them from anything?) nor can you let fear run your life. But days like today I just want to and that totally unrealistic fantasy plays through my head over and over. The randomness and unpredictability of this tragedy is paralyzing, although knowing that it wasn’t a part of a larger plan (as far as we know right now) is I guess ….. I don’t know … it’s just a different act that creates a different fear.
I’m just so sorry for the families and loved ones who were affected by this and please know that our hearts go out to you and will continue to regardless of how normal my life feels/looks on this blog or social media. Sending all the love from my family to yours and know that while sometimes there doesn’t feel like a cause or fight to get behind (like in this case) I guess I’ll just keep trying to be the nicest person I can possibly be all day long to everyone I encounter and teach that to my kids as well. Geez. Doesn’t really feel like much of an action, but hurt people, hurt people so on days like today it seems like while there isn’t any solution or answer to a problem, trying to be nice and not cause any hurt is what I’ll do.
If you are local to Las Vegas and are looking to help, local law enforcement is asking people to donate blood “United Blood Services will start taking donations at 7 a.m. at two locations: 6930 W. Charleston in Las Vegas or 601 Whitney Ranch Drive in Henderson.”
Any other suggestions?