Charlie’s birth video … documenting my pregnancy

That’s right … Charlie’s birth was filmed (and you can watch at ULive.com), which I realize is a sentence that gets a HUGE reaction like this, ‘You … had a film crew in there? OMG.” And that’s when I remind them that no there wasn’t a CREW (although, frankly I would have permitted it). It was one dude. ONE dude, (‘sup, Steve) that I have worked with a ton so he’s kinda a friend and I was comfortable around him (no, not that comfortable but I knew him well enough to know that he wasn’t judging me).  (Oh, and read the birth story to get the play by play)

Besides, when I was in blinding pain do you think I gave a crap (literally and figuratively) who was in the room? I didn’t. Well, that is not true, I wanted him to be there. I wanted someone to document ‘The woman in the most pain ever’ for the Guinness book of world records. I didn’t win, strangely … I was robbed (probably  by a woman who had to withstand that for 24 hours instead of my short birth).

emily henderson birth

Let me be clear  - nothing from the business end will be shown … sadly. Was the business end filmed? I don’t know, probably … hopefully. But, obviously that won’t be online – although to be honest not because I don’t want it to be; I’m proud of what happened down there and yes, its gnarly and insane and might make some/most people uncomfortable, but to me it’s so amazing and I kinda want the world to see it.

(more…)

The time that “Emily Henderson” got (or didn’t get) “Emily Henderson” in a web-quiz

I found this quiz in my inbox two days ago and life imploded in a tiny little meta poof. Its all over. Read my borderline narcissistic, over analyzation of what getting or not getting “Emily Henderson” did to my mental stability. But first take the quiz.

which decorator gets you

Lets go through my thought process when I saw this quiz:

Thought #1: #$%&*@!!! Even if it’s just this authors selection (although the PopSugar site is HUGE) and even if it’s just for this quiz, I am just so flattered to be within spitting distance from Jonathan Adler, Kelly Wearstler, the Property Brothers and Nat Berkus. And without getting all J-LAW on you and virtually tripping down my blog stairs, just know that I’m psyched to be up there. Very.

Thought #2: Well, most of these people have influenced my style greatly so even If I do get ‘me’ a lot of it is due to ‘them’, so by getting ‘me’ am I really just getting ‘them’? Its starting to get weirder. I’m uncomfortable but in the same way that I was uncomfortable before my first sloppy kiss in front of a crowd of junior high kids behind the school dance in 7th grade – embarrassed, yet excited enough to go through with it anyway.

Thought #3: What if I don’t get ‘Emily Henderson’?  There was a strong chance that I could get ‘Nate Berkus’ who I love dearly – personally and stylistically. Or ‘Jonathan Adler’  - who I used to work for and whose whimsy definitely influenced me. Or ‘Kelly Wearstler’ whose style is so over the top but I fantasize about it all the time. The ‘Property Brothers’ I know and love (personally) but they are two straight dudes and are way more contemporary, masculine and rustic than I am so I kinda knew that it wouldn’t be them (although ironically that’s who Brian got).

So I started taking the quiz.

(SPOILER ALERT – I analyze  how to get ‘me’ or ‘Nate’ or anyone else in this post, so take the quiz first so you aren’t influenced by my ramblings and then come back and read about how crazy I am).

Here’s the first question:

house options

No problem. I love New York but I’m from a small coastal town. I love Europe but ultimately can’t be away from friends and family. I don’t ski nor am I ever perceived as someone who is super ‘outdoorsy’. So I’m choosing the top right. I’m from the Oregon coast so they might be assuming that I’d choose the bottom right, but the ocean is cold, scary and full of monsters and swallowed up planes, so I’m a river, lake and meadow person. The bottom left might be Oregon but I’m a green grass/sun person not a winter Oregon person. Jonathan Adler and Nate are probably NYC, Kelly is probably Paris and the PB’s are probably  the snowy mountain or the bottom left because they are Canadians. Not sure what is more “Emily Henderson” but I chose the top right.

drink options

Ha. So this is tricky. I think they think “Emily Henderson” drinks either bubbly or margaritas because those drinks are the most”fun”. What they might not predict (or maybe they really do know me) is that for a bar cart on a Saturday night, I’m a whiskey girl – manhattans, old fashions, and many other trendy ‘ye olde-y meets 2012′ drinks out there. So this was one where I was nervous. I chose ‘whiskey’ but knowing that it might not be “Emily Henderson”.

paint options

Alright. So for this question I just had to go with my first impulse  - the top middle gray/blue. Orange and brown were obvious ABSOLUTELY NOTS, and the mint is a great trendy color but ultimately I’ve not been on that trend train in my own house. Are they associating me with gray? That seems VERY unlikely as I generally use a lot more color. Or maybe the baby pink? Out of all the us I would say I’m the most ‘baby pink’ and yet not. at. all. So I chose my top middle gray because it’s what I would put on my walls and it was my first instinct. It’s not what I want on my body (this pink skin looks practically dead in gray) but i don’t think that’s what they are asking. Had there been a navy or teal that would have been obvious so I appreciate them keeping us guessing.

gift options 2

TRICKY TRICKY TRICKY. The new ‘Japanese mid-century Scandinavian with a side of weird’  ”me” chose the bread board. It’s actually what I need. But I know that what ‘Emily Henderson’ would give would be that brass pineapple and they aren’t wrong. But they asked me what I want and right now I want that bread board because its such a happy circle in a pretty tone. Jonathan Adler is the animal coasters (I want), Kelly Dubs is the bottle opener (which I love), the white/black box is from Nate’s collection at Target (which I already own) so I’m assuming that’s ‘him’. I guess the Property Brothers are the rustic jug or the board. Again, I chose the board because its warm and yet graphic and modern … but I could be wrong …

pillow options

Ok, folks. This one is the hardest one because I know what they are thinking that “Emily Henderson” is that heart pillow. And if it were in a different color palette they would not have been wrong, for sure (White with navy? sure, shove it in my mouth). But orange and light blue are tricky for me. I thought to myself, whilst nervously chewing and swallowing my own hair, “if I don’t choose this pillow then I probably won’t get Emily Henderson and then I’m probably a total failure!”  So I panicked and chose it. Keep reading.

wallpaper options

Easy. Hands down the chinoiserie with the birds and butterflies (middle bottom). The rest of them are hard to pinpoint “who” they are, but I’m assuming the property brothers are the wood wallpaper (which is what Brian chose) and the monkey wallpaper is probably supposed to be Jonathan Adler, but the other couple I’m not sure. Maybe the floral is supposed to be ‘me’, but I’m not sure. I’m starting to be very unsure what is me or not.

chair options

For this one I knew it was down to the tufted teal chair and the tall Charlotte Perriand stool. Both are pretty “me” (but are they “Emily”???) I do love some tufting and certainly that color, but I’ve blogged about that leather chair/stool for years and just sold 12 of them on Chairish so they are certainly not off brand. One is my cozy granny side the other is my mid-century dude side. Ultimately I chose the teal because It’s also comfy and classic which takes the win.

Anyway. After all those questions and lots of really meta thoughts, I got “Emily Henderson”. THANK the digital lord.

decorator

BUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTT ….

Then I went through it again and changed up the  teal chair to the leather stool, the heart to the dot pillow (even though I knew that was Nate’s from Target) and got “Nate Berkus”. Happy but immediately paranoid, I got obsessed and took the quiz like 27 times and either got “Emily Henderson” or “Nate Berkus” EVERY OTHER TIME. And then I was like, “Who “am” I? Emily or Nate? What does “am” mean? And is it more ‘me’ to be more Nate or is it more Nate to be more me? Am I more attracted to Nates style than I am my own, or am I more into “my own” than I am into “me”. Is “ME” an orange heart is or that just the perception of me to myself? Am I perceiving myself as a brand or a person or both? Am I half “Emily” and half  ”Nate?”  Do I have a penis? Do I even want to be “Emily Henderson”? Am I more “me” because I like pineapples? Is that what “me” means? PINEAPPLES AND HEARTS!!!!???????

And then I took a bunch of unlabeled pills and slept for 9 days having Fear and Loathing style psychadelic dreams about tropical fruit and meadows and graphic floating hearts. Jonathan Adler called me ‘Petal’ again, Kelly Wearstler drank so many green juices, the Property Brothers playfully argued over who does more work (while we all know its Jonathan), meanwhile Nate and I spooned for hours and I felt like I was just hugging myself, unsure of whose leg was whose but not caring.

….

So … who did you get?

Leave it in the comments, and please, dear god, let there be at least some “Emily Hendersons” out there. Although I hear that she is certifiably N.U.T.S..

Subquestion, and possibly the most important question I’ll ever ask myself: am I, Emily Henderson, actually Nate Berkus?

Sincerely,

Nate Berkus

The best weekend …

We did nothing this weekend and it was just wonderful. After the Airbnb project (more blogging on that to come, but check out Snoop’s right now) and Vegas we needed a weekend that was just ours. I needed to not have any commitments; nothing except cuddling a certain baby and enjoying our new house which I still never want to leave.

charlie emily henderson

Friday afternoon I had a sitter watch Charlie while I got a massage with my best friend and then had a couple drinks. It was lovely, wonderful and a new friday ritual. Then Brian and I watched the Veronica Mars movie (me for the second time) and went to bed at 10:30 mainly so I could wake up and have the fullest, happiest day possible with one Sir. Charles Henderson.

Saturday I woke up at 7:00, mentally begging Charlie to get up early (he woke up at 7:30)  and then we went on a 3 mile hilly walk where I caught up with my mom on the phone. Afterwards, I instagrammed this makeup free pic where I got a lot of good advice on how to properly wear my baby. Whoops. And for the record he can absolutely hold his head up himself, he was just sleepy in this photo – I’m not walking around with my baby’s head slumped over for an hour, I promise – I support with with my hands, too.

baby-wearing emily

So for our Sunday walk I used my more complicated (but yes WAY more comfortable) Stokke Carrier. So don’t worry, America, Charlie Henderson’s hip flexors are healthy and happy.

To celebrate his hip flexors I bought an awesome antique persian rug. Here’s the deal with traditional persian rugs – I love them in theory but they are often in bad colors. So when I saw this (3′x6′) I knew it had to be in my entryway. Those colors are just perfectly me. Besides, right now I have a lot of new things in the house so this rug is giving everything else some soul. ($1900 down to $350 … I mean, rug dealers are, ahem, challenging …). Not a steal, but a good enough price for how unique it is.

teal persian rug

Oh and then naturally I decided to throw in this rug, too. I hadn’t been out of the house is 5 days (I’m not kidding) so apparently I panicked and was desperate to shop as if it was a post apocalyptic world where the vintage rugs that we own will determine what level in the new caste system we belong to. Don’t worry, Brian, we are in the ‘Very high because you hoard a lot of vintage rugs’ class. I really am useful sometimes.

navy pink kilim

I love this rug, but in retrospect it wasn’t as wise of a choice. I don’t exactly have a space for it … but i do have a bench that is dying for a redo so this bad boy might be on a piece of furniture ($200 for 2×8 at a random rug store on La Brea next to Sycamore Kitchen)

Then I went to my lovely friend Danielle Krysa’s book signing at Skylight Books in Los Feliz. I don’t want to gush but trust me that if she lived here we would be hanging out every weekend – shopping, brunching, playing with our respective ‘Charlies’ (yes both our sons our named Charlie). Plus she is a total humble inspiration.

danielle-krysa-emily-henderson

I look like I clearly took the ‘Lean In’ advise literally as I’m about to topple Danielle over. No matter. I HIGHLY recommend buying her book. In her book she interviews 50 incredible artists and asks them how they get over creative blocks. It’s such a simple but genius idea with a ton of practical, approachable advise.

danielle-krysa

I think its SUCH a good gift for anyone that is pursuing a creative career or hobby. I’m serious. I LOVE IT and have picked it up over and over this weekend.  Buy it HERE.

creative-block-book

Then Sunday morning I went for another big walk and then did a solo shopping trip to Target (my first since I’ve been officially on Team Red, read about that exciting partnership HERE) and bought A LOT of very exciting accessories and textiles for my house.  I was there at 9:30 am, it was so quiet, I got my pick of everything and it was just wonderful. I was there for an hour and a half, went through every single aisle and happily cleaned that joint out.

sofa.com sofa

Meanwhile my family room is coming along (more details on that this week) with my new sectional, pouf, curtains, lamp, blanket and basket. After I played decorator all day (on Sunday)we took the kids to Golden Road Brewery and had such an idyllic Sunday afternoon with our best friends who also have a kid (its a kid friendly joint).

Then Brian and I curled up on above sectional and watched Nate Berkus’ American Dream Builders which I liked for the most part but am dying for more details/photos of the designs (those before/after pans go so fast you don’t get to see so much of what they did).

charlie henderson

And then last night this guy started giggling for the first time. And he couldn’t stop. And I wanted to cry and die and put him in my mouth, chew him up and swallow him so that I can have him near me for the rest of my life. Don’t even bother nominating any band in 2014 for the Grammies; the sound of Sir. Charles Henderson’s laugh has just won all  ’best sound ever’ awards.

And now its Monday, and this is how Charlie feels about Monday:

Charlie copy

photo by LK Griffin Photography

Me, too. But don’t worry, Charlie, Mondays (while definitely the worst) are only 24 hours long and then Tuesdays come along. And Tuesdays are only 4 days away from Fridays. So we are on our way to another very fun weekend.

Thanks for listening to the rant. Sometimes I over think posts (which can take weeks to write) and sometimes I’m like, ‘why not just post pics and ramble aimlessly about my life?’

Clearly I chose the latter this time :) I hope your weekend was full of baby laughter, breweries, shopping, friends, and walks. Thanks for listening, friends. Have an excellent Monday.

xx

Ramblings of a New (working) Mom …

Emily Charlie Henderson

Well Charlie is 3 1/2 months old now and I’m still suffering severely from postpartum obsession. I just love this little mush pile so much. Not every day is perfect, certainly, but when I’m tired (often) and frustrated  (often enough) I just think about how things will not always be like this. Someday he is going to be grown up and will probably call me WAY less than I want him to and visit even less than that.

It makes me so grateful every single second that he is my baby right now; that he looks at me with nothing other than pure innocent love, that he needs me right now more than he needs anyone else. I don’t annoy him ever; I am the best! I am his person and I’m not always going to be that. I don’t want a day to go by that I don’t hug him, kiss him, squeeze him and appreciate the fact that I have his 18 pound mushy body in my arms. Everybody says cherish every day because they grow up so fast and I’m really really trying to do just that. 

Because even though his crying can be frustrating at times, at least I get to be the one that soothes him and that will not always be the case.

untitled-29

But work is nuts in a good way and its been super hard emotionally to know that there are some days/weeks/months that I will not see Charlie nearly as much as I want to and possibly as much as a mom should. Last week while we were in Austin for SXSW I was working 9am – 8pm for the first five days. Brian watched Charlie and would come bring him to the site so I could feed him and hold him for an hour at a time, but by the end of the five days doing that I was bawling. It just wasn’t enough. He clearly was preferring Brian over me. Brian made him smile faster and bigger, he knew more about how he was doing/feeling/napping, he had more special daddy/son games that he played with him, and I was super sad and pretty jealous. (more…)

Big announcement !!

If you’ve run into me lately you might have noticed that I am in an extremely good mood, and while Charlie surely has a lot to do with it, so does the news that I’m sharing today: I’m going to be the next Bachelorette. Kidding. I am incredibly happy to announce that I’m the new Target Home Spokesperson.

Target Emily Henderson

I’ve always shopped at Target, in fact I remember when they opened in Brooklyn 8 years ago and all of New York got soooo excited. We’d schlep out there, buy everything we could just to take a $100 car service back with our goods, but we didn’t care because we were excited to get our hands on their pieces. As a stylist, a store like Target is priceless because its one stop shopping. You can buy everything – from pillows to lampshades, to books, stash boxes, tools, prop bags and shoes, furniture, towels, food props, just EVERYTHING. It just makes my life so much easier.

In the last few years their home collections, (Threshold, Nate Berkus‘ and Room Essentials) have been killing it. I find myself there ALL of the time buying stylish and yet totally affordable pieces like these bad boys:

Target Media

1. Blue lamp shade | 2. Triangle pillow | 3. Vase | 4. Tufted bar stool | 5. Nightstand | 6. Side table | 7.  Tufted bench | 8. Jute stool | 9. Area rug

Those are just a few of the pieces that I’ve been wanting lately. I went to the headquarters last week and met all the product and development team (hundreds of designers and artists) and got a sneak peek into what is coming out this year and trust me, you’ll love it. It just gets better and better and I’m so proud to be partnered with them. They are a smart company, doing smart things, designing stylish pieces, with lots of extremely exciting and innovative partnerships (like my friend Joy’s new line). I literally and figuratively buy what they sell.

Read more about it over at the Target Blog A Bulls Eye View, where you’ll get a few photos of my family and I growing up and what my main philosophy in life is. Bold, I know.

Thanks to y’all for reading all the time and to Target for bringing me this opportunity. Its going to be an insanely fun year.